Umm so Im sure some of you have notice that I haven't been writing on here lately, well a sistah has been going through a lot. I've been trying to get my life together and in the midst of that a little thing called depression took over a bit. Also recently my heart has been broken like no other and I thought i would share the story with yall with what happen.
Too make a long story short, the man I trusted and loved basically did me so dirty words cant even describe it. I can only blame myself because I ignored the signs knowing darn well I should of known better. I don't even want to go into details because it's just way too much to bare. But basically me and dis guy had started talking back at the end of January didn't think nothing would come from it but I end up liking him and then later on loving him.
I trusted him and shared so many things with him. The lawd knows that when I love someone I really LOVE them. I was there for him when he was struggling, I was his shoulder to lean on, the only person he could talk too. I truly loved him. For me we had a special bond and we understood each other, I could always tell him anything.
Well signs that I shoulder stopped are relationship before hand is for one he showed signs of depression, two we are a different religion he's a SUPPOSEDLY Jehovah witness, and three there were signs that his ex was still in his life.
So a month ago after he ignores my phone calls two nights in a row i get a txt from him telling me he's no good for me, and that i deserve better, and that he cant give me his heart that is torn, and that he needs to focus on his relationship with God. He wasn't even man enough to call me and I had to call his ass just to hear it out his mouth. So I simply told him to never contact me again and that basically he just used me to fill his void. He responded with his lame I'm sorry, im so beautiful whack shit. Now I aint going to lie there was hope in my heart that he would get himself together and later on call me and want to be together ... boy was i wrong.
Fast forward to now ... 3 days ago I'm on facebook which I haven't been on for ages (hence me and the guy are no longer friends on there) but while I'm one of my friends profile I see him on the friends sidebar ... he has a new picture up.
Guess what people it's him and the ex him in a tux and her in her wedding gown. I look her up , her last name is now his ... he married her. Mind you we just stop talking a month ago.
Hurt, rage, pain are not enough to tell you how I feel. I have never felt so much anger towards someone like i do now. He really played me. So my friends asked was i going to contact him and say anything ... that answer hell no. I'm moving forward and some things are left unsaid. I'm going to walk away quietly from this and take it as a lesson learn. Am I'm still in pain yes, every time i think about it I get physically sick. But I will say I'm recovering faster than I expected. Why would I want to be with someone like that anyways. Karma will me up with him one day.
So lessons I learned:
1. Do not ignore any type of signs .... address them accordingly.
2. Do not date outside your religion I will never date a Jehovah witness again, I apologize if offend anyone but I dont give a damn.
3. If someone is not showing you 100% love, that should tell you something.
4. Walk away quietly dont even make a fuss, because Karma is a bitch!
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